Tuesday, February 28, 2006
few days back..
there was endless dispute am0ng my family and i...
this wasn't the w0rst..
i quarrelled with him t00..
the quarrels are jus s0 hurting tat i ouldn't h0ld back my tears ..
they jus came r00ling d0wn my cheeks...
i t0k t0 desm0nd....
i asked him al0t 0f tings..and i als0 c0nfide al0t 0f personal tings t0 him....
maybe it is bec0s he makes me feel tat he is a pers0n wh0 can be a great c0unsell0r...
i feel s0 weak...
i l0st myself..
i dunn0e here is the jiayen tat is happy-go-lucky...
i admit tat things i t0ld des were s0 secretive tat he didn't kn0w...
i wanted t0 break up with him...but des persuaded me n0t t0..
but i keep tinking..things aren't g0ing the right way...
s0 wats the p0int 0f c0ntinuing???
he didn't give me wat i wanted... h0w much he kn0w me?
i amh0nestand b0ld enough t0 tell him..
i dun kn0w much 0f him.....
i tink his fran kn0ws him beta instead 0f me..
i ratther b a cl0se fran than a f00lish l0ver ....
i was quite puzzled ....tats y i asked him
'h0w much d0 u l0ve her?are u able t0 f0rget and let her g0?'
he replied' i l0ve her al0t bc0s diff sch tats y separate ..i will nv forget her'
then i t0ld myself..
if tat is the case why n0t...i give in.. let him g0..
let him try t0 w00 her back??
it is lky we are f0r 1 yr ....but yet were s0 infeir0r c0mpared t0 her and him
the time they have..they l0ve they have...
i swear is irreplacable.....
why am i the 3rd party........
fuck it
